Thinking about you

Today, you were missing during lunchtime, I asked someone friends if they knew where you were but everyone had no clue of where you were. After lunch, one of my friends, (the ones you don't talk to) told me that you failed biology unit 1&2 and had to repeat it. I was shocked, and I was worried about you.
I waited for you after period 6, hoping I could ask you 'are you okay?'. But you were busy talking to our English teacher, so I waited for you at the front of school until you came out. I watched you walked out, you looked so lifeless, you used to be so cheerful all the time. You walked past me without even realising that I was there. Suddenly, all these feelings just rushed in. I wanted to go up to you and hug you, make you smile. But...all I managed to say was 'Are you okay?'. As usual, you replied with a nod and walked off. I watched you leave and at that moment, I realized how much you're suffering because of everything that happened this year.
Right now, you're upset, you're hurt but I can't do anything for you. I kept thinking of ways to make you feel better, my head was spinning, and all I could think of was to give you some time to calm down. I felt so helpless, for not knowing how to cheer you up, how to comfort you. All I could do for you was tell one of your close friend to comfort you. I hate myself for being so helpless.
I went to work, because I know I would go crazy worrying about you, I needed to do something to get clear my mind and distract myself. I still care about you, remember that.
我放弃你是为了你好,我不配当你的朋友。
I am sorry for being such a useless friend, I am sorry I couldn't be there for you, I am sorry I can't do anything to help you.